One Body I Haven't Had

One Body I Haven't Had

I’ve had many bodies in my forty-five years. My body was stretched to encompass twins, birth weights 5lbs. 5oz. and 7lbs. 12oz. Three times, due to three pregnancies, I was the smallest I had every been since puberty because by the fourth month of pregnancy, I had endured over two months of hyper vomiting aka hyperemesis gravidarum. After my first two daughters, I hired a trainer with Rob’s hazardous duty pay and was able to get into pretty good shape and surprised Rob when he returned from deployment. After the twins were born, I had little time for me so I remained . . . padded. The one type of body I’ve never enjoyed is a visibly muscular one. After 40, we begin to lose muscle mass. That is a problem. I am carrying the most weight I have ever carried; even more than right before birthing my twins . . . and likely less muscle to carry it.

Massage therapy has helped because giving a massage can be quite a workout. I became a personal trainer too, because giving exercises and stretches is not within the scope of a massage therapist and yet, that is the larger factor in keeping your muscles healthy and in full range of motion. So I didn’t become a personal trainer because I am so in love and well practiced in working out . . . it was to have the head knowledge and expanded scope to help my clients so they can work out. And yet, I want my head knowledge to help me too.

So, for the month of February, I am dedicating myself to a certain regimen. It is not some fancy diet that someone else made for me because I am rather unapologetically rebellious. I made it up. I’ll call it . . . the 0-5 lifestyle. 0 grains, dairy, sugar . . . 1 daily workout comprised of 100 air squats or 3 sets of 10 weighted squats, 50 push-ups and 100 hip thrusts, gradually weighted . . . 2 cups of coffee and servings of nuts . . . 3 servings of protein . . . 4 large glasses of water . . . 5 servings of greens. I’m going to do this for the 28 days of February.

Current Weight: 202 lbs.

Pant size: 14

My support group is a Facebook group for women who lift weights. It has become my favorite “feminist” group. It isn’t actually a feminist group but the comments they put up with at the gym about how their bodies should look are shocking. It has helped me realize that no matter your size or fitness level, someone is going to opine on it.

How do these women respond to these unsolicited suggestions? They ignore. Their attitude of disregard has inspired me even more to lift. These women are Amazons. I want to experience what that body feels like.

Have you committed yourself to a fitness goal before? How did it go?

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